being homesick

moving to a new place was ALWAYS my dream. i was sick and tired of maryland. its people, the area, just everything. don't get me wrong though, i LOVE my family and the close friends i made there over my 22 years if life, but after that many years, your mind, body and soul just begins to beg for change.


so change i did.

being the assertive person i was, i decided that i should go ahead and knock out as many of life's changes as i could in less than one month. in a nutshell, i decided to get married and move out of state in a period of 2 weeks. yes. i said 2. not years, not months, but 2 weeks. after a whirlwind of planning, drama, stress and a lot of money, the wedding and move happened, and is now done. i enjoyed it all for the most part, except for the move. we had to drive a moving truck with my little corolla attached from silver spring, md to tampa, fl at a whopping 55 MPH max. just to show how awful that was, just the thought of ever having to do that again makes me cringe.


but anyway, we're all moved in and the first couple days of married/ moved in life were great, but now 6 days later, i can't help but feel alone/ sad/ empty/ homesick. no matter how much you try to prepare mentally and how 'over it' you felt about your old home, you cannot prepare yourself for this feeling. and thats where i'm at right now. i'm at this horrible place where all you do is think and think, and cry and pray that you will feel at home soon. but it doesn't seem to subside. i miss my friends, i miss my family, i miss everything that i had in md. hell, its crazy that i can even think this thought, but i miss MD. deep down i know (and hope) that this feeling will slowly die out, but for now i just can't help but feel like somethings missing.

at least i have my babies here with me to help ease the solitude...