back at it like a crack addict

i know i know. i haven't been posting at all (for my secret life stalkers out there) LOL.

kelsey keeps reminding me that i'm lazy and that i dont post and blah blah blah. so here i am. I'M BAAAAACKK!

since my last post in october (sheesh) i have had some interesting things happen. first of all, im the proud grandmother of 4 adorable 'porkies' = pomeranian-yorkie mix. sakura and peanut did the nasty and voila! there were 4 little fluffy mutts. i then had another dog (a bitch to be exact) move in with kenny and I. we named her kelsey. LMAO.

life happens.

after my spiel a couple posts ago, i am NOT gonna move. i ended up getting offers for second interviews and blah blah blah, but after really thinking about tampa vs. orlando, i decided that i am happier here. granted i won't be close to disneyworld and my friends out there (i have more friends there than i do here), i still prefer the more laid-back living i have noticed here in tampa. not to mention that im 30-45 minutes away from some of the prettiest, clearest and cleanest beaches on the gulf. and traffic here isnt anywhere as crazy as it is in orlando. for the sake of my heart health i need to stay away from dumb traffic or i will force myself into cardiac arrest. and yes, i am that intense while driving. don't ask me for a ride during rush hour because you will regret it later lol.

i also thought about the long-term, and the job i was going for wasnt something that i would see myself doing for more than a year. so automatic no. like most human beings, i secretly and sometimes sub-consciously crave and want stability. dont get me wrong, change is often beneficial and keeps us feeling alive by challenging us. i love the challenge. most people do.

perspectives...

i was skipping through the blogs i follow, and decided to hit the 'next blog' option up at the top. i figured i could be a little adventurous and see what would pop up. after like 5 blogs in languages i did not understand, and 2 'family' blogs (which i didnt understand. like why would you want to blast your WHOLE family on the interwebs??) i was able to find a very simple blog which contained only pictures. this was like the blog of my 6-year old dreams lol.

hit the jump for the rest :)

since 2010 is the year of change......

...i guess i might as well move where we had planned to in the first place: orlando.

you know, the land of mickey, happiness, childhood dreams, outlet shopping, blah, blah, blah. i can go on and on. but i digress.

before i get too excited, there is one MAJOR hurdle i have to jump. this hurdle is called a job.

finding jobs nowadays sucks. and even when you find a job that you might like, it ends up paying like $4 an hour with the potential for a $0.10 raise every 5 years (im obviously exaggerating, but you get the idea).

love.lust.need.want

is there always a diference?

sometimes i think back on my conquests/past 'loves'/wastes of time/etc., and i cant help but wonder what it was that initially grasped my attention, but more importantly, why it was so difficult to pull away.

did i think it was the ellusive 'love'? yea, probably.
were there promises and statements made that were false? definitely.
did i want to believe it was meant to be? of course, who doesnt??
was i just an idiot? DUH.

now was it because he was the 'man of my dreams'? FUCK no.

if it was one thing i always knew, i knew that i deserved better. but yet, i stuck around. being the typical 'stupid girl' who wants to believe that hes the right one. that he loves me. that he doesnt lie, doesnt cheat. that he isnt a royal piece of shit. smh.

words that rhyme with 'tuesday'

so i didnt fall asleep last night til 430-5 AM. then in a spur of awesome events, i am awakened by my 3 horribly needy dogs jumping on my ear, face, stomach, woohoo, etc. let me tell you, that is NOT how you want to be awakened after not being able to sleep at a reasonable time. i brushed it off and dove under my blankets and extremely comfy (for lack of a better word) comforter so that i could resist these attacks.

eventually the terrible three [dogs] decided to chill the f*ck out, so i resumed my peaceful slumber. that is until the king of nuisanceland (peanut, my peanut butter-colored pom) decided to come chill on the bed with me.

**a quick background on peanut and his stupidity: peanut has decided he needs to mark his territory EVERYWHERE. that is an extremely literal everywhere. sofas, walls, doorways, plastic bags, boxes, etc. hes even pissed on my feet. that f*cker. **

anyway, i was minding my own business when, in an instant of dumb shit, peanut cocks his leg on my DOWN COMFORTER and pees on it!!! W T flying F!!? i was so mad. so mad in fact i wanted to throw him against a wall or something. ughhhh.

so hence my title today: words that rhyme with 'tuesday'. there really arent any (that i can think of) but i came up with the new title for this blessed and fabulous day: 'tuesday blues-day.' yea, sorta like 'sunday funday,' except much more upsetting. but look ahead with a sense of positivity, because tomorrow is HUMPDAY. only good things happen on humpday. such as humping, for one.

**note: no animals were harmed this morning**

its been a while.....

• since ive called my mother (easy fix).
• been to school (gonna start that online thang this month).
• went to the beach (i live in FL for peets sake).
• bought a new bag (its a recession).
• cut my hair (i only let brazilians touch my hair).

etc, etc, etc.

the list is endless...

but i guess i havent blogged in a while either. main reason for that is because i forgot/ got real lazy. you know when u get in a rut where u dont like whats [not] going on in life, but yet you feel no real motivation to do something about it? yea, thats where i was this past week.

after my visit home i found myself getting very emotional/ pissy/ borderline bi-polar easily. when i say easily, i mean if you sneezed too loud around me i was about ready to cuss you out. i really wish i could have blamed it on the female's #1 reason for unwarranted bitchiness (PMS) but unfortunately, hormonal imbalances had anything to do with my demeanor at all. i found myself sad at one moment, to happy, to completely pissed off in a matter of 5 minutes (or less). i want to think its because i miss home, but i feel like theres more to this than just being 'homesick'.

am i crazy? you dont really have to answer that. matter of fact u shouldnt answer that, because i will bite your head off with the quickness of a cheetah. a very hungry cheetah. or a lion.

just dont test me because ive done some self-diagnosing, and with my expertise in the field, i would have to say i may be borderline personality disorder meets bi-polar. whichever scares you more.

RAWR.

IN THE MOOD?!

image via themoodpolish.com

as i was perusing through NYLONmag.com , i stumbled upon their blog. and let me tell you, its kinda awesome. amongst the hundreds of fabulous/interesting/unique finds they feature in their posts, i came across mood polish. now at first i had no idea what that would mean, so i had to investigate. as simple as it seems, the mood polish is the updated older sister version of the mood rings i used to wear back in the day (when gold/silver/platinum meant nothing to me, and color and awesomeness were WAY more important lol). they currently offer 6 different shades, so my goal is to collect all 6 :) i definitely will be putting in my order soon, because i am one to wear my emotions on my sleeve nails. LOVES IT.

FINALLY HAVE [good] WI-FI / DMV = EVL

YAY!!!! we finally got a GOOD internet service provider today (better than this florida 'brighthouse' crap), and i can blog! lol. i can now use my netbook instead of my hubby's comp, which acquired an awesome malware/virus/evil thing that killed his comp (special thanks to brighthouse for that also lol).

anyways,

im amazed at how psycho/crazy the weather and life in the DMV has been in the past couple months/ this year in general.

first, the record breaking snowfall of death and coldness, where i was stuck in my little house with my fam for THREE DAYS. no heat. no power. no entertainment. did i mention no heat? yea that was the worst. or so i thought.

then summer hits and the DMV became hell on earth with record breaking highs. and we already know about summer heat and humidity out there. its no joke.

THEN i hear via twitter that an earthquake hit MOCO, with the epicenter in germantown. W.T.F. dude i freaked out cuz even though im out here in FL, my parents, friends, everything else is in MD, so i hit my mom on the celly quick cuz i was scared shitless. luckily, it just woke them up at the asscrack of dawn and startled them, but nothing more *whew*

now this weekend a tornado watch/ PEPCO's worse nightmare hit MD. at this point im pretty sure the end of the world in 2012 is gonna be in MD cuz that place is turning into the place with the worse luck ever.

ugh. DMV i want you to know i pray for yall every night cuz lawd knows u need it. so i love all of you in the DMV, but please, move away as quickly as you can, cuz lord only knows what can be coming your way next.

shower, mini-wheats, work, sleep, repeat....

they say life starts to get repetitive once you get married...

and they are right.

when big boy and big girl bills and responsibilities come around, you have no choice but to do what you have to to make it all work. and in doing so, you eventually fall into the repetition rut, where everyday is the same as the last, and is a preview to the next.

mine happens to be what the title states: wake up and shower, bowl of mini-wheats [FROSTED of course, who wants to eat hay for breakfast?!] , go to work for 8 hours, then come home and sleep. of course there's miniscule details i may have left out [for the sake of time and lack of importance], but at the end of the day, it was the same day as the last.

so i will say to you and the next person, learn to enjoy the things and people you have in your life; dont take them for granted or wish you had more. because you have plenty. learning to make the best of it is the hard part. so wake up in the morning and be grateful that you are breathing. hug the people that are there for you on the daily. tell them you love and cherish them. if you have any pets, realize and embrace how unending and pure their love is towards you, and use that as an example.

life is too short to be mad at what you dont have, or where you arent going, or how 'boring' your life is....its your life, and YOU are the only one responsible for making it worth living.

wedding pikatures arrived =]

pictures arrived!! BIGGGG thanks to miss emily abril!

i picked out a couple that i really liked....but i will be posting them all on a site somewhere, currently waiting for them to load as i type :)loving the black and white, and the sweets that were made by beth cabido were both gorgeaous and DELISH!

if you know me, you already knowwww the shoes had to be on point. lol.

anyways, to those of you who want to see all the pictures (or at least the ones that i have been able to download, go to my wedding site: http://rebeccahandkennyanderson.shutterfly.com

LOVESSSS ITT!

thoughts on love........

so brasil game today was very uneventful...but we still won our group YAY! now its time for us to step up in the more important round.

anyways, i've experienced my first unhappy fight with my hubby. luckily we were able to talk it out before it got worse.....trust me i'll be the first to tell you, being married is not an easy task, but it is a beautiful thing. being able to love someone unconditionally and know that they love you just as much is a refreshing and liberating feeling. it's not like anything else you could experience. ever.

so if you love someone and it even crosses your mind that they do not feel the same way about you, or if they don't treat you right, or if they lie on you and tell you you're crazy, etc etc (i can go on for daysssssssss), get out before you get more hurt. we've ALL been there before (men and women), the difference is that some of us realize that we deserve to be treated right and we get out, broken heart and all. so take care of yourself. love plenty, but love smart. don't let 'love' be the excuse for your own emotional abuse.

just remember, a broken heart can never be mended or nurtured back to health if it keeps getting abused.

HEXA?

mais e claro!!!!!!!!!

for anyone who isn't into soccer (or lives under a dark rock somewhere), the world cup season is upon us. this means we can all put down each other's countries as much as we want, because let's face it, my country is better than yours. LOL.

but anyway, brasil (yes i MEANT to type it with an 's') is playing their first opponent today, and needless to say, we're winning. not only this match, but the WHOLE thing. we're bringing it all home. because we're that fu*king awesome.

i will admit though, for n. korea to be in their first world cup since the 1960's is pretty awesome also. so kudos to you guys. it just sucks that your first match is against us =]

so enjoy this world cup season. wake up at 7 am for some brews and some soccer. watch, learn, celebrate. love each other. and if you don't love brasil yet, you will. i promise.

HEXA CAMPEAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it should be illegal to wake up this early

moving has definitely been one of the most mentally and emotionally taxing tasks i have had to go through, but this morning i got to experience waking up at the crack of dawn (literally) to go to work. not to knock on those who do this on a regular basis, but waking up that early SUCKS. a lot. theres no sunshine to welcome you, and all you hear is the loud and obnoxious bird noises.

maybe im just bitter. oh well.

for everyone who got to sleep past 6:30 am, i envy you.
and for everyone else who does this on a regular basis, kudos to you, for you are a greater and more disciplined man/woman than i will ever be.

SOS - save our seas :(

(image via sustainabilityninja.com)

i'm sure that we are all aware of the situation in the gulf by now. the endless number of gallons that have been (and continue to be) spilled into the gulf waters have caused the death of many of the areas animals, and has taken many honest workers' jobs away. the potential for destruction (whether it be permanent or temporary) is a thought that i cannot fathom, and it breaks my heart to see the suffering that this oil leak has caused to these people and to these animals.

but before i moved here to tampa, the oil spill was something that was happening far away; somthing that would not affect me in maryland. what i failed to think about was that this disaster is going to affect everyone - eventually. news coverage on the spill here in the bay area is a lot more in depth and complete, and it continues to show how the oil is creeping towards the gulf beaches in florida, and how this is affecting the local fisherman and seafood restaurants in the area. the news channel WTSP 10's website, http://www.10connects.com/, estimates that over 39 million gallons of oil have been spilled at a rate of about 840, 000 gallons a day.

i find myself trying to figure out what i can do to help, and honestly, it seems as though there really isnt much that can be done by a regular person. of course some are saying to 'boycott BP' and make sure to use gasoline from other companies. now as much as i believe that that would make a statement to BP, i also believe that they have more important things to worry about, and while we might be taking away from their business, we're not doing much to help the situation at hand.

one company has decided to poke fun at the situation, while making a statement and doing their part to help. you may know them for their witty (and sometimes inappropriate) t-shirts, that feature sayings and graphics that poke fun at everything from boys (and their stupidness) to foods. two of their newest shirts poke fun at BP with one saying 'i heart BP' with an oil-covered sad heart, and the other says 'thank you bp! for killing us', with pictures of oil-covered birds and sea life.

although at first glance they seem a little too cynical, it shows that the statement needs to be made. the best part though, is that 100% of purchases goes to the national wildlife federation!!

if you feel like you want to make a statement and help out, purchase these over at http://www.davidandgoliathtees.com/. make a difference in a positive way :)

being homesick

moving to a new place was ALWAYS my dream. i was sick and tired of maryland. its people, the area, just everything. don't get me wrong though, i LOVE my family and the close friends i made there over my 22 years if life, but after that many years, your mind, body and soul just begins to beg for change.


so change i did.

being the assertive person i was, i decided that i should go ahead and knock out as many of life's changes as i could in less than one month. in a nutshell, i decided to get married and move out of state in a period of 2 weeks. yes. i said 2. not years, not months, but 2 weeks. after a whirlwind of planning, drama, stress and a lot of money, the wedding and move happened, and is now done. i enjoyed it all for the most part, except for the move. we had to drive a moving truck with my little corolla attached from silver spring, md to tampa, fl at a whopping 55 MPH max. just to show how awful that was, just the thought of ever having to do that again makes me cringe.


but anyway, we're all moved in and the first couple days of married/ moved in life were great, but now 6 days later, i can't help but feel alone/ sad/ empty/ homesick. no matter how much you try to prepare mentally and how 'over it' you felt about your old home, you cannot prepare yourself for this feeling. and thats where i'm at right now. i'm at this horrible place where all you do is think and think, and cry and pray that you will feel at home soon. but it doesn't seem to subside. i miss my friends, i miss my family, i miss everything that i had in md. hell, its crazy that i can even think this thought, but i miss MD. deep down i know (and hope) that this feeling will slowly die out, but for now i just can't help but feel like somethings missing.

at least i have my babies here with me to help ease the solitude...