life happens.

after my spiel a couple posts ago, i am NOT gonna move. i ended up getting offers for second interviews and blah blah blah, but after really thinking about tampa vs. orlando, i decided that i am happier here. granted i won't be close to disneyworld and my friends out there (i have more friends there than i do here), i still prefer the more laid-back living i have noticed here in tampa. not to mention that im 30-45 minutes away from some of the prettiest, clearest and cleanest beaches on the gulf. and traffic here isnt anywhere as crazy as it is in orlando. for the sake of my heart health i need to stay away from dumb traffic or i will force myself into cardiac arrest. and yes, i am that intense while driving. don't ask me for a ride during rush hour because you will regret it later lol.

i also thought about the long-term, and the job i was going for wasnt something that i would see myself doing for more than a year. so automatic no. like most human beings, i secretly and sometimes sub-consciously crave and want stability. dont get me wrong, change is often beneficial and keeps us feeling alive by challenging us. i love the challenge. most people do.
  we all have a bit of a competitive nature that helps in those challenging situations. BUT im pretty sure ive put myself through enough change and challenged myself enough with the wedding, move and being married in general. im all out of challenge-ness for now and im good where im at. thats all that matters right?

of course, there are the things that i know i need to work on/ fix. like my credit score. lollll. but really though, i want to 
be able to buy a house soonish, and thats all about your credit score. and honestly, mine isnt bad,
but its not as good as it could be. like many americans i took out credit cards when i turned 18, and was

pretty responsible with them for the most part. but of course, life happens. college tuition had to be paid, and i did not have the cash in my bank account, so swipe away. needed books for said college classes. swipe. need rain boots because college campus is a rain pit. swipe. and the list goes on. i did fuck up with my retail store cards though. victorias's secret to be exact. that joint is like a credit nightmare. simply because its so easy to drop $100-$200 in one visit. i mean come on now one bra costs me 55 bucks?! G T F O H. but swipe away i did and voila, my debt-income ratio is now poop. ugh.

but i digress.

I WANT TO GO SHOPPING! and i want these boots.

this is why my credit fails. lol.