BUT this is where I can actually vent (to the world/myself) more thoroughly. tumblr's cool and all since it has pictures EVERYWHERE, but it almost seems like its made so that people can try and live vicariously through their posts/reblogs/cliche-ness.
but i digress. since my last real post, not much has really happened in a physical sense; it's been more of a mental/spiritual change for me. it kinda sounds as though i had a spiritual awakening, but it wasn't that deep. i mean, it was deep, but not that deep.
anyways, I realized that I had been allowing myself to be way to negative about everything. about the dogs, the apartment, the move, being married, going to work, gaining weight, etc etc etc. the list goes on and on, but in short, I was being negative about LIVING. and that, quite frankly, is unacceptable.
in the short week that my parents were here with me for the holidays, I began to finally realize what life is all about. just by seeing the way that they embrace everything life throws at them without missing a step and take advantage of every moment, I saw what I had been missing out on. they are so full of love, patience and the desire to enjoy life, that no matter how tough it gets, they always find a way to find something beautiful amongst their struggle. I realized that I had allowed myself to stress about material gains and financial pains, and had begun to lose sight of what's really important: being alive and being loved.
now I don't want to get all lovey-dovey and mushy on you, but how often do we really stop to enjoy what we have. if you're reading this now, at the very least you are alive (and hopefully healthy) and have a computer/smartphone. and that's at the very least. if you have a roof over your head, food on the table, a job, friends and loved ones that love you unconditionally, why sweat the small stuff?
it may be hard to overlook the hardships, but remember that those are inconsistencies that come and go. the real important parts of life are always there, always ready and waiting for you to acknowledge them. just focus on looking beyond the negative so that you can give yourself a chance to notice and appreciate the positive. life is too short to take for granted, so maximize it to its full potential.
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